i used to love kpop
den i got over the crazy fever, and stayed quite neutral
just didnt like the fact that they all plastic
BUT 40MINS AGO, I OFFICIALLY HATE KPOP
FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKK KPOP MAN _|_
12:19am..
i sat here waiting for her sms reply
AND SHE WAS BUSY SITTING ON HER SOFA WATCHING SNSD
HOW EPIC -.-
okay la, not like im tgt with her or wat fuck
BUT COME ON, THE CHANCES OF GETTING TGT ME WITH IS A LOT HIGHER THAN GETTING WITH THEM RIGHT?
1:they live in korea, u live in sg, woman
2:them and you are GIRLS
3:THEY PROBABLY DONT EVEN KNOW U EXIST
why dont u spend more fucking time with me and we might probably HAVE SOME SPARK SOON
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
damn it man
fuck kpop
edward cullen look so much cooler now. cb
I REGRET NOT SUPPORTING TWILIGHT, AND NOW KPOP IS INFESTING AND RUINING MY LIFE
-___-
ARGH. dunno what to say alrdy.
looks like 2010 aint gonna end the way i hope it would: happily

what my place in ur heart
im fucking tired of having a damn blog which posts are alternates on the mood
one happy, nxt sad
make me feel fucking pathetic
dunno cry over u how many times liao sia
first girl who make me liddat
stupid me
fucking dumb me
open to u fully for fuck, u barely opened enough for me to slip in at all
now so hard to close. u're in anyw, close also no use
i feel like a retard, thanks to u
the retard who smiles at himself
as if there's no such thing called worries and anger and sadness whenever i recieve a msg from u
'Coz you aren't in dat category. Lol'
i swear these words will haunt me for as long as i dunno
AM I THAT LITTLE IN UR LIFE
TO NOT EVEN GIVE A FUCKING POKE BACK
HOW MUCH IS A DAMN POKE TO U ANYW
YOUR FRIGGIN LIFE?
the main thing is not whether u poke back or not
is just, what am i to u, seriously?
i wanna fucking know
so i can adjust to that 'rank' of which u see me in
and the rest of the day naturally falls apart too
no need anymore explanations

YOU PUT ME IN A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE, WOMAN
basketttt
awhile happy, awhile sad, awhile angry
so i think im. err. happy now? o_O
i seriously should think lesser
like A LOT lesser
be an idiot, know nothing. and be a sloth, dont bother discovering
liddat best, live happily with what u have now
ahh
I LOVE YOU:))

eh. jibai, fuck off leh
today. is totally shit.feel like exploding in anger, bursting into tears, and sulking at a corner
go esplanade, somebody talk all de jiao wei. i just smile smile act like its nth
at mrt, stand in between 2 indians talking loudly to each other
kns ur conver dunnid share with me can? i dont speaka indian anyw dickheads
exiting pasir ris mrt station, some fuckers in front dunno why so slow.
i just shouted a WHAT THE FUCK LA and walk to anyother tapping machine thingy
u know, actually all these shit WOULDNT HAVE MATTERED AT ALL
if u didnt make me feel like im just "one of another guys who u gotta entertain out of basic courtesy" ur replies today are practically ONE FUCKING WORD, when u minus off all those HAHAHAHA, Lol, Okay, and smileys.
lose interest in talking to me alrdy? well maybe that not wat u think, but thats how u're making me feel. u make me feel like a boring piece of shit
i told u to talk to me when u feel like it, u reply "heh. okay. if u insist"
WOW. that is AMAZING
i hope, sincerely, with all my heart, that u'd initiate a conver, now, later, or tmr morning, afternoon, evening or night. w/e
but i know u said that u dont really start a conver. i just hope i'd be an exception
but the smarter part of me told me to dream on,. yeah i doubt that smarter part of me would be wrong
seriously the past week talking to u was really awesome.
i know
that 好事不常在， 好花不常开
but i didnt expect it to end so quickly, as usual
i would say, someone, anyone, pls make me feel btr now
but i know only u can do it
funny how the only person who can make u happier than any other human being in this world
is also de same person who can drag u down crashing into depression and shits

wahahaha im so proud of u :))
CHAMPIONS:D
thou u were kinda off form
wasted so many chances! D:
BUT at least u scored once and u helped ur teammates a lot of times :)

arghhh. ytd slept at 4+am, woke up at 12pm
den went to meet her at tamp mrt and go sbc
we didnt talk much on the train. in fact we hardly even exchanged a few words :/
well i guess im just too shy and scared that i'll say smth wrong or something boring..
ok reached sbc at 5+, watched the hawks vs unity
so boring.. if dont have the damn things sounding so loud i would have slept thru the match -.-
den siglap youth vs amazons!
49:42, haha siglap won!
close match
thought i could be home at 11+. end up 12.20 liddat reach home ><

today, slacking at home again! while u go watch boys match, and eat with dr boon :/
shall go breaking tmr, for ray! since its her birthday tmr. haha.
wonder if i should buy her any presents
buy things for girls, so mah fan. aiya dunno luh. most probably wont buy
i dont really expect anything from ppl during my birthday anyways
argh paiseh to all i didnt get presents for ><
sian im kinda running out of things so say to u, to initiate convos. help me out here a lil would ya?

what can i say, each reply makes me love u more~
i wanna know what u women think
i feel like i got a chance
then de thought of u being quite close to guys, got my hopes down again
know how guys fantasize sometimes?
for instance, i say "i dunno how to impress u anymore.."
i hope u'll reply "it's ok, coz u alrdy got my heart:)"
OF COURSE
things NEVER turn out the way u want it to be..
give me a chance, i swear i'll bring u happiness
you know i can, and i will
give me a chance, i wont let u regret
give me a chance, for me to fly
give me.... your love, that's all i ask

i swear last night when u were down and shitsx u scared the shit outta me -.-
even if the world comes crashing down, i'll be there to hold it up for ya
even if everyone else lose faith in u, i'll still be here
talking to u, makes me feel like i own the world haha
u're just that important to me
despite when u're busy, u give those 3-6 words replies in 10+mins
it all seems worthwhile when i receive ur msg
i just hope it'll continue this way forever, and if possible, more la of course
but for now im learning to be satisfied with what i have. i wont ask for more
i wont let greed take over!
and now im enjoying the time spent with u
while it lasts..

3b class chalet was awesome~~
thou the chalet place kinda suck
and can see 3b a lot of ppl not on one. not very bonded..
FIRST DAY
reached at 12pm, only got me, bird, melissa and pei fang -__-
all de way till 4+, 5 bala and rochelle came. so theres 6ppl
5+, bala and bird left, back to 4 peeps
at around 7, zh brendan haixin and ryan came so now only 8 ppl!
den dinner, girl bballers came, peifang melissa rochelle and brendan left
so the remaining ppl who overnight were me zh hx ryan rhesa yingyi agnes and jeanette
midnight went out to bowl. me and zh bet on our game
i was doing damn well, until i scored a double glutter and zh striked -.-
in de end lost by a point T_T
nvm, 1 drink only $1 haha xD
stayed up awake till 6am+, when the girls left to school for training
by then hx and ryan slept liao on one bed so me and zh went up each person take a bed :D
den woke at 8 coz melissa they came. sleep again
wake up again, saw ryan playing cards with them, slept again
woke up again, the girls forcing us to wake up one -.-
by then 12 liao
afternoon go celebrate weitai bday, went to lan
blah blah not interesting
UNTIL AT NIGHT
got slightly more ppl staying over! about 10-12 or smth
DRINKINGGGG vodkaaa whiskyyy
vodka taste way btr, but both also sucky
but i still like! drown away my pain
ryan got drunk, at first damn funny. about 10mins ltr, not so funny alrdy
me zh melissa and hx got high after that!
hx was like spilling out his love secret without knowing
i know what i was doing but i got the 'dont give a fuck' and 'just do it' feeling
started yelling and shoutingggg haha ><
play games and drink all the way till 7 liddat (based on the colour of the sky outside)
den i starting thinking in a half drunk state
finally slept awhile after
woke up at 8+. girls are the best alarm clocks u can ever find -__- geez
ryan hangover
den settle him, until 12+ den can go home

drink drink, vodka and whisky
drown my pain away
despite the horrible burning sensation in my throat
i'd still drink all day

i. wanna say a lot of things. but i dont dare to now
coz i dont want shit to happen

rawr IU have awesome voiceee ><
she's only 17! GAH SO CUTE xDD
good cover, if a girl would sing this (perfectly) to me i'll go meltszxc LOL
aaaahhhhhh IU<3 check out her gee/lies/sorry sorry covers too ^^

hoho and im in love with jeanine and philips' dace, mad by ne-yo
so you think you can dance de (saw it in huizhen's itouch)
no partner to dance that with, sad~
I WANNA BE HAPPY

rawr class chalet was awesome
too bad we didnt do much tgt ):
as usual i nvr spent a day without thinking about u
im sorry im not initiative, im sorry i wait for the sky to rain frogs
i dont make bets on things related to life
if i dont see much chances of succession i wont dare to try
blame my lack of guts, and my sense on insecurity
ever wonder where these came from? o_O
u nvr sound serious, u always make it sound like i have no sense of importance to u
u told me u dont wanna have anything related to me
so im respecting that choice of urs
i dont wanna be a bugger, and try to get close to u whether as a friend or more
when u dont seem to give a fuck
im sorry for being so afraid of what u'll think of me
im sorry for being cautious with my actions
im sorry for being so passive
if u have anything to tell me, feel free to knock on my door anytime. i WILL be there
as long as u're willing to open up and speak out ur mind, i'll listen and reflect
but if u act like u dont give a fuck, so would i

sleep for less than 5hours in 2days, haha
class chalet~
6dec got one more. die liao ><
HUIZHEN, 鸡饭不要鸡，三碗:D