its been over a year since i've posteddd. SO IM BACK NOW:D
decided to start blogging again coz IM BORED
and there are things i really wanna shout out loud but i cant do it on facebook
well, off u go to msia. wont be seeing u online for the nxt 4days i think
unless u found somewhere with internet, den u'd be online for whoever that aaron is
he seems to be an epic loser i swear ._.
anyway, today's post is supposed to be my shout out to YOU
all the shits cranked up in my mind, ima letting'em lose now

honestly, half of me wanna chop u up into pieces, throw u off a bridge and feed ur remains to sharks
the other half wanna hold u tightly and nvr let go
there's smth i wanted to say after that day
but i couldnt say it calmly till now
hmm. so.. WOW. that was quick. 2 weeks, or perhaps even less
u know, i can be a guy who would wait for u to fall sleep
a guy who go accompany u thru ur sleepless nights
a guy who could comfort u and always make u smile
a guy who love u for ur imperfections
你吃面，我喝汤的男人
the guy who protects u from assholes
the guy who is ur pillow, ur bolster, ur tissue, ur punching bag, ur form of entertainment
somebody who will always be by ur side
i will make u feel loved, i promise
but u nvr gave me a chance
AWESOME~
well, thats for wat i CAN do
now for wat i CANT do
i cant sit by and watch guys all over sg jioing u
i cant take up the role of being just a FRIEND, and watch u love someone else
i cant uphold the role of being a FRIEND, and encourage u to love someone else
i cant take pride in having the role as a FRIEND and help u get tgt with another guy
i cant keep my cool when i see guys trying to get closer to u
i cant decide whether i should be proud that my taste is good, or be fucking jealous

u might not see this. if u do i bet my fucking ass it wont touch u, nor will it reach ur heart
im just ranting. yes. im awesome
i still spend sleepless nights thinking about u
sleeping at 2am is a routine now
sometimes even later then 2.
i just spent last night chanting 'u're shit, im over u'
look at where i am now:)

and all you STILL only think about now is if i 死心 alrdy or not
thanks for this 2 months "how to become a selfish bitch" course

"someone who is loved not necessarily knows how to love. someone who knows how to love not necessarily been loved"