u have been blogging less
that's, err. good and bad
good? coz i wont know how happy you're living without me
bad? coz i wanna know how you're doing without me

if fb can track who visit ur profile everyday, i'll totally be busted

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

grenade, is not a song for u to sing
its for ME to sing it TO U
i wouldnt talk to another girl
i wouldnt look at them twice
i wouldnt use my phone that much
i come online everyday just to talk to u
i'll go anywhere with u whenever u request
gah, ppl say its YOUR loss not MINE
but i doubt so, based on MY current situation
why did i fall so deeply for u
arghblah!
w/e life sucks

when i see u, my heart whispers "i love u", my soul agrees "i need u", but my mind reminds "she dont care about u"

(8/11/2010) says:
-how's e match?
-ah
-sorry sorry
(22/11/2010) says:
-12:17:02AM// Hey, I wanna know kay. do I even exist in your life?
-12:24:02AM// Uh, -speechless- but si xin-ed already rite?
(24/11/2010) says:
-Hey! Got miss me anot? xD
-Ahhhh. Wth-.- ps. Wrong person. Lol. Sorry sorry

i wish i am cold blooded. so i can kill ppl like u without as much as batting an eyelid. more importantly, i wont fall in love. this is a curse. u taint my life. i want u outta it. but i cant get u outta my life. fuck it

thanks for the memories. ppl say when u love until it hurts, only greater things would come next. i dont see anything great coming

its been over a year since i've posteddd. SO IM BACK NOW:D
decided to start blogging again coz IM BORED
and there are things i really wanna shout out loud but i cant do it on facebook
well, off u go to msia. wont be seeing u online for the nxt 4days i think
unless u found somewhere with internet, den u'd be online for whoever that aaron is
he seems to be an epic loser i swear ._.
anyway, today's post is supposed to be my shout out to YOU
all the shits cranked up in my mind, ima letting'em lose now

honestly, half of me wanna chop u up into pieces, throw u off a bridge and feed ur remains to sharks
the other half wanna hold u tightly and nvr let go
there's smth i wanted to say after that day
but i couldnt say it calmly till now
hmm. so.. WOW. that was quick. 2 weeks, or perhaps even less
u know, i can be a guy who would wait for u to fall sleep
a guy who go accompany u thru ur sleepless nights
a guy who could comfort u and always make u smile
a guy who love u for ur imperfections
你吃面，我喝汤的男人
the guy who protects u from assholes
the guy who is ur pillow, ur bolster, ur tissue, ur punching bag, ur form of entertainment
somebody who will always be by ur side
i will make u feel loved, i promise
but u nvr gave me a chance
AWESOME~
well, thats for wat i CAN do
now for wat i CANT do
i cant sit by and watch guys all over sg jioing u
i cant take up the role of being just a FRIEND, and watch u love someone else
i cant uphold the role of being a FRIEND, and encourage u to love someone else
i cant take pride in having the role as a FRIEND and help u get tgt with another guy
i cant keep my cool when i see guys trying to get closer to u
i cant decide whether i should be proud that my taste is good, or be fucking jealous

u might not see this. if u do i bet my fucking ass it wont touch u, nor will it reach ur heart
im just ranting. yes. im awesome
i still spend sleepless nights thinking about u
sleeping at 2am is a routine now
sometimes even later then 2.
i just spent last night chanting 'u're shit, im over u'
look at where i am now:)

and all you STILL only think about now is if i 死心 alrdy or not
thanks for this 2 months "how to become a selfish bitch" course

"someone who is loved not necessarily knows how to love. someone who knows how to love not necessarily been loved"