hmm
im riskin my ass just to blog
hope my parents wont be back anytime soon
i guess i'll stop all these emo shit
i know u dont like it
nobody does
most probably u dun give a shit anyw
but still
i wanna change
for the btr
not for u
but us
im not gonna make u angry anymore
in fact i dun think i'll be talkin to u anytime soon
unless u talk to me 1st
i'll be tryin to avoid u
i know u hate me
u always lie
lie that u're ok
i know u arent
i just play along
coz i dunno wat to do
i cant influence u no more
my words have no power
neither do my actions
i'll juz play dumb
wat else is there to do?
im attached to u
i know u dislike this
so , i have the huge chainsaw right beside me
im cutting this connection
i know u love it, yes i do
so i wont affect u no more
im not gonna comment on watever u do
i'll try not to give a damn abt wat u do
i think this is de best for both of us
im gonna change
coz i feel damned, corrupted, condemned
well i gotta thnx u
for making me realise
what kinda of shit i am
im sorry for making u
shed those tears, when u used to care abt me
im unworthy, yes..
i've lost everything
and i plan to start anew
im gonna go back to being
that foolish dumb kid
or btr
i'll return to the likes of me when i was a kid
wat my parents wanted me to become again
that innocent good boy
i know
u think a lot
but trust me
i think a lot more than u do
when im in toilet, on bed b4 i sleep, when its de tv commercial
even when im playing dota
sometimes i even dreamt a bt u
haha..
im such a dumbfuck
and u once said
wat happened between me and my long lost bella
is different frm wat happened between u and u far-away edward
if wat u were tryin to say was
u are in a lousier condition den i am
think again..
i'd rather
u dun talk to me at all
avoid me
rather den slipping those love letters u have for ur edward into my ears
u dun have a knife for breakfast, lunch and dinner
i do
u think, seeing the one u love love someone else is pain
wat abt, seeing the one u love, devoting her soul to some other guy
wats that compared to just seeing he love someone else?
a mere pea
ur heart has barricaded itself away m mine
i dun see how much of a friend i am to u anymore
im sorry but i HAVE TO GO
away frm u
its the best for us
i'll be watchin u in de shadows
but i'll also avoid ur light
coz these dark corners are afraid
scared that they'll be illuminated
too bright, eyes burn..

you're smiling again
thats good
i hope ur beautiful voice is back
ur lips are my personal favourite radio station
ur face is my favourite tv chn
u are my pefect present
u presence enlighten me..
too bad i cant get close to u
i..
looks like i..













need to leave..
goodbyes,
with love and care