haiz
had a game of dota
i nvr fail to meet bullshit pulp players
not for a single day i'd miss at least ONE of them out
hai..
u seem to put u frends in front of me
mayb its a sign tat im not as important to u
as i THOUGHT i was
hmm
like, i've been askin u for abt 3 weeks
if u could make it to watch night at the museum 2 with me
i've been getting NOs
den when somebody ask u
u agreed, but coz of today's events u cancelled
nice one la
ppl ask 3 weeks all no
ppl ask u a day or 2 b4 u say yes
like, wah is damn frustrating sia
say ppl avoid u
u make it look like u're avoiding me instead
say wanna be like how we used to be
u treat me lesser than o ur classmates
nice one v nice
not askin u to treat me as more den a frend
at least, a frend can bah?
i feel like im juz someone whom u met
and smile, waved at only la
sibei sian one u know
i not angry la
juz fucking frustrated
this is why i insisted at first that i cant treat u like i used to do
u charmed me to doin as u pleased
i cant blame u for tat
aiya
i also dunno who or wat i can blame at
mayb myself
for having such misfortunes
seriously if i could hibernate for 10 years i would
sleep and forget all the past
wake up, a new beginning
i juz wish life had a 'reset' button
turn back everything
all these hardships that this beloved 'God' has given me
i think i slowly becoming anti Christ --"
partly shld be coz of guanwen's influential
mostly shld come fm past experiences
wait i rmb smth i wanna say

YAN HAN CAN U FUCKING SHUT UP
wat ur tyan wei v hot leh
i seriously wanted to knee u in u groin
seriously leh
mock me all u fuckin want la
dun bring her in can
mock my failures
my lousy instincts
my lousy looks
my lousy intelligence
juz dun fucking bring her into my failure can?
like u v shuai
v smart
v perfect?
你是没人要，不是不要人
mock urself 1st can?
joker..


irritating bastards
think u v funny
ppl suffering u at there enjoyin de scene
how disgusting
reuben not as bad
only at there
daddy sim..
still like, so outdated?
slow..
argh, so painful..
all these
ae like slow poison
killing my cells
and eventually killing me
i juz cant seem to bother abt the outside world anymore
hadda act that i LOOK ok in front of everyone
more importantly, in front of U
not tat, u're not worth all these
but, i juz need my time out
i always bathe and stone
or go toilet and stare at ceiling
i realised, i havent sing since i've been thrown aside by u
havent sing..
only mouthed de words.. but not sing
i hardly draw
i hardly had the mood to do anything
coz everythin u do hurts and draws away my strength
slowly im becoming a lifeless corpse
rotting away to the ground as time passed
speed up time to rot me faster
o turn back time to my lifely, happy moments
shall this so-called god or watever deities which exists
grant me my wish
may this unworthy one dream again
to be with his always perfect queen