1st of all i'ld like to declare that
IM NOT AS DESPERATE AS U THINK I AM LA --"
ok mayb a bit luh~~
i juz treat u a lot more than a frend
i guess u can say i treat u btr than my frends and family?
hmmm
anyw, i juz realised my freaky in-love symptoms are up and on de move again
shall list them
1st. i tend to chant de girls name repeatly
when im outside, i chant de name in my head or i mouith the words
2nd. i get 90% speechless when im with de girl
3rd. i feel damn shy and my heart beats super fast la
4th. i talk more to strangers rather den de girl. too nervous :S

shit.. i hate it when i become like this
coz im gonna get super far away frm de girl la
now alrdy so far, dun want to shoo her away further...
haiz.. lololololol

today went to shangbo's church
coz She went
as usual, they'll ask if u accept Christ at the end of the whole service
as usual, my ans was no
sry x/
well sb acted as TARZANNNNNN
jane's lover
ltr, TARZAN hadda GO CHINA with de role of a MISSIONARY
nice, tarzan go china
den conflict with jane
and broke up
well the sermon (if i din spell it wrongly)
was abt bgr today
in my head i was kinda
*chanting Her name* at the same time *lalala-ing*
and occasionally took short glances at Her
haha weird
den i expected to be able to spent some time with Her
to walk around parkway
HAIZ
her parents was there
my plans totally FLOP la
. . . . . . . . . . . . .....
den walk around like some restless spirit
or like a sheep who's shepherd was lost
--"
go arcade to burn some time
wah, was so disappointed by my plan's flop
moodless luh..
my street basketball thingy
shootin imba inaccurate la
wth
usually 1st stage can 120
today 1st stage only 60+ --"
din pass stage 2 today
usually all de way to stage 4
de score required to pass de stages are :
stage 1, 50+ (i juz pass)
stage 2, 150
stage 3, 250
stage 4 (last stage), no min pts required
highest points reached today was....
210 +/- .... --"
pls la, my personal is like, 350?
grrr
played de time crisis 4
de prolouge (1st stage) alrdy 2 lives lost
died at 2nd stage
dun feel like playin liao
anyhow to play some weird crappy game
and left soon afterwards
ate Mc alone..
i noticed some ppl lookin at me luh
im de only one lookin at the opposite (empty) chair
and eat...
i was super diao-ed and also added on to my grief T_T
decided to faster eat and leave
den on de bus
i saw this female stranger
wah de 1st impression i had of her was
when she older 80% chance be model
she's freakin tall for a girl
and her 身材was ..
DAMN!! WOW!!!
--" my She is still de best thou ^^
i noe wat u all thinkin
i pervert go look other ppl right? heheh
WRONG
she was opposite me, obviously will 看到 la..
but she coz tired, den damn unglam
she fell asleep (i think)
den head and body shaking left right like earthquake liddat..
lol


yeah i know u hate ppl to cling on u
im tryin super hard not to stick onto u everyday la..
i tried with not sms-ing u to start a conversation
den u'ld sms me with a sweet ' (: '
obviously i hadda reply
and when i try not to look despo
sometimes u get de wrong idea of me emo-ing
i noe it'll ruin ur mood
so i cant do it..
i juz want u to be happy kaes?
if u start to ahve de 'yi liang's so irritating' thought
juz say one word : SCRAM
and i'll be off
seriously, i wldnt mind u being hard on me
used to it
thnx to lyndsey's intensive trainings
i'll juz get sad for hours or mayb at most a day?
and i'll be fine le (:
so dun worry
ur wish is my command
even thou
after our conversation
i know
that u and me can nvr be together..
coz u've decided to go for... i think?
so yeah
u know, all these wouldnt get so complicated
if u would juz say No to me
yeah.. haha
watever it is
im always here for u
for u to count on
for u to depend on
when u need love
u can always turn to ur family
ur God
ur frends
and not to forget
u can turn to me
coz i love u unconditionally
i dun ask for ur love in return
thou if u could, that will be good
but watever it is,
im ur biggest fan and ur number 1 supporter (: