another of my tragic love story
my Happily Never After

i got hell packed in my bag
i seriously find no meaning in continuing goin to sch la
like, im not good academically, not good in sports
not good in games
no future la
i got girl phobia
females are super scary
they like, seduce u to get ur heart
when u hand it over they rip it apart in front of u --"
well not all girls la..
some mayb chooses to listen to God, to their calling. bleh~
some are flirts o.O
some juz totally no interest in u
yay? i find myself less persistent after de lyndsey accident
i tend to give up way easily
like now, giving up on her, giving up on life
wanna camp in front of comp everyday and date it
mayb i'll marry a comp when i grow up
since it wun hurt me
i realised i was totally blanked out in sch today
mr seow dunno call me how many times den i react
slept in class also
staring into blank space
blahhhhhhhhhhh droooooool
argh
dun feel like goin sch
like forever
i should consider quittin sch la
now, wake up in morning, heart pain
go sch, heart pain
see her, heart pain
on bus, heart pain
at home, heart pain
even when i play comp also a bit no mood, coz heart pain still
muz drown myself in music, blast it like nobody's business
den i can relax a bit..
i realised i have no talent in jio-in girls
and when i get rejected, i wun wanna see tat girl
coz
1. it hurts
2. i feel failed
3. it hurts
4. i feel embarrassed
5. it hurts
6. i feel depressed
7. it hurts
8. i feel retarded
9. it hurts
10. it friggin hurts
11. it hurts bad
12. IT HURTS SO BAD I CRY...
again..
haiz, yeah i feel embarrassed, crushed, depressed and fuckin retarded now
haha a boy cryin? mayb i play with barbie dolls still
yeah i cried. cried so bad, i chant this : "i dunno who is tyan wei. i dunno who is tyan wei. i dunno who is tyan wei.."
yeah i wanna forget u, forget abt everythin tat happened between us
and forget abt the feelings i've gone thru
as i cried, i bite myself till my arm bleeds a little..
its a bit reddish now, shld be ok soon, mayb by tml
i have woman phobia
dun wanna get hurt again..
gonn create a barrier between me and girls
a small one for me and boys, juz in case i turn gay --"
i stay to close to girls, i end up liking her
and my tragic love stories replays again
this cycle have continued for 2 girls
i hope it wun come by the third time..
coz i'll turn to smth thats lower than dust, - nothingness
i think i wun be bloggin for awhile le
and making my blog open to all
anyw i heck care de world le