when to de beach
wasnt as exciting as i thought it would be
drowned myself in 100plus again today
i drink and average of 2bottles/day
haha
1st bottle each sch immediately buy 1 bottle
its like my beer
dunk away my sadness
nvr get sober again
HO HO HO DI DOH
NV GET SOBER AGAIN~
lol
today chinese lesson watched chi4 bi4 xia4
at watched twilight
how i wish i could be edward cullen
o.O
where's my bella? i kenna SHOOPA! coz im not edward cullen
heheh xDD
actually i like to kenna SHOOPA! somehow, for some reasons
mayb it hurts as much as cuttin own wrist!!!!
i love to CUT
lol jkjk i not emo until liddat
may sooon :X
well my bella found her edward and i hadda let goooooooooooooo
NNNOOOOOOooooooo
ah nvm. i becoming some twilight freak
lol
its so, unrealistic la
th relationship is juz too perfect
whoever heeds the 'courting advice' frm the show is an IDIOT
coz u're treatin a movie as reality
wat a joke
go sleep and dream more realistic than the movie la
i duno wanna wake up fm this dream and face reality. u heard?
there are actually A LOT of things i wanna say but i dun want and i couldnt say it.
if u think im avoiding u den sry but im not i juz cant treat u like b4.
not tat i hate u or wat but i juz cant do it
i ahve this kind of problem
i juz seem to raise up my head and talk properly to those to rejected me or watsoever
if u ahve a problem with that den face it
yeah im insensitive blah blahhhhhhhhhhh
u should have treated me this cold since a decade ago
tskkk
everytime i see zetian and huizhen togethe ho
i SUPER envy them la, seiously
in fact, today's lame trip to de beach was toturing
all de couples
see 1 heartache once
actually is more of see once die once
so i dunno i died how many times alrdy
i may not be the best for u
but i seriously think HE isnt any btr then me
if he's like
super caring andf loving towards u
my heart will be at rest la seriously
but he isnt
eveytime i see u hurt
i get hurt too
i dun wanna show it to u
i also dun wanna get too close to u
to prevent my feelings for u to regrow/grow stronger
u ask me qns like u know most of me alrdy
BUT U HELL DUN
u totally dunno wat im thinkin
wat are my plans
etc etc
i hope u'll find a btr guy
u remind me of..
me..
bye