today is bball national finals.. and AHS won!!! and de refree another got ap de.. keep on side unity... so lame... scoldd c*** b** at him a lot of tyms... pointed the longest finger at him too... haha.. anyw today is another sian day... other den de bball finals..

took bus with lyndsey n youjin today... after de game la.. den when lyndsey was restin.. i cldnt keep my eyes off her... and de bus was shakin quite strongly den i scared will wake her up or she'll fall down, or smth else... den when quite near marine parade and she was still restin.. i scared she will miss her stop.. but dun dare wake her up.. coz if i made a mistake i'll feel v lao qui n bad..so sian... den we 3 liddat, sat at 3 different places... doin our own stuffs [ restin or listnin to music or using phone] my phone no batt.. so i cld do nth... as when i was idlin.. i tot of tat jun woon guy again... den i tot of lyndsey goin back to texas again, too... ahh felt lyk slappin de shit outta me.. i also... felt lyk cryin tat instance... my chest felt empty inside too... as if my heart juz vanished.. and i got a feelin tat.. once she goes, she'll nvr come back.. her brother was excited abt goin back to texas... and i tink her parents wld go for the eldest's decision...
im so pathetic.. all i cld do is look at lyndsey, suan her, bein stupid , and sit dere foolishly, not noe-ing wat to do.. idiot... IDIOT!! IM JUZ AN IDIOT!!!! AAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FCK SIA!! when will i learn to do things instead of dooin th, or messin things up, makin matters worst? wtf... i hate me... i hate myself.....................

juz leave... and dun come back...