i asked her in person on thursday!
oh well, i was rejected
I AM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF
at least i got the guts to do so.
HAIZ
im still not over u
how how
at least now a load is off my mind, somehow
wont get so easily affected liao, i suppose

OFF TO SCAPE IN AN HOUR OR SO :DD

haiz
i really, REALLY cannot take it anymore
i cant wait till february, till valentine's day, till ur birthday
and pop the gambling question
its not even a 50-50 chance to begin with
in addition to the current situation we're in
maybe u're ok liao luh. since this kind of things dont really matter fuck to u
but im not. im still frigging pissed
although we arent tgt or wat. today morning saw her busy buzzing off with her handphone
confirm guy luh. i sms u at that kind of time u sure dao. or say 'in school liao. ttyl'
these kind of things really get me fucking upset yeah
u dunno how it feels like as usual. and u'll nvr know
what am i doing now
i shouldnt be affected by likes of u this year
its o levels liao.
u know, u could have been my motor drive, my motivation
but yet u chose to be someone giving me emotional setbacks almost everyday
i wanna forget u, its been more of a nightmare den a pleasant dream
i might regret it someday, that i could be officially giving up now. idk
all i know is whenever i see u again my heart gonn feel like thousands of needles prickling in it
i wanna move on, but i have to forget u
i wish i never met you

2011 arrived. o levels gonna kill me
during the time since i havent blogged i went on a cruise and attended adam khoo's learning program.
both were great
cruise with weiling and her bros. spent time playing cards!
adam khoo program. i loved it
i'll nvr forget it
the trainers are awesome, and one of them is like my role model
leroy! omgosh..
den, shit happens too as usual
she just always hurts me without fail
dun even know how to make a proper sincere apology one
or wat, maybe im not valuable enough to be apologized to luh huh
last time, after each time u CRUSHED ME
u just sorry, den i happy liao
sometimes u dont even say anything i also ok liao since u still talk me to
AFTER SO MANY TIMES, i sumpah, fucking feel like ur damn toy
oh yiliang havent break totally yet, can step on some more
everything i do, how i feel, blah blah
ALL ALSO JOKE MA DUNNID TAKE IT SERIOUSLY ONE
aww i feel sad, YILIANG IS SUCH A FUCKING JOKE, WHAT A DUMB ASS HAHAHA ok i feel btr now :D
maybe without me ur life btr huh. one less EMO person to entertain
how u ever wondered why im emo? use ur dumb brain after u get ur shits straight

i used to love kpop
den i got over the crazy fever, and stayed quite neutral
just didnt like the fact that they all plastic
BUT 40MINS AGO, I OFFICIALLY HATE KPOP
FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKK KPOP MAN _|_
12:19am..
i sat here waiting for her sms reply
AND SHE WAS BUSY SITTING ON HER SOFA WATCHING SNSD
HOW EPIC -.-
okay la, not like im tgt with her or wat fuck
BUT COME ON, THE CHANCES OF GETTING TGT ME WITH IS A LOT HIGHER THAN GETTING WITH THEM RIGHT?
1:they live in korea, u live in sg, woman
2:them and you are GIRLS
3:THEY PROBABLY DONT EVEN KNOW U EXIST
why dont u spend more fucking time with me and we might probably HAVE SOME SPARK SOON
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
damn it man
fuck kpop
edward cullen look so much cooler now. cb
I REGRET NOT SUPPORTING TWILIGHT, AND NOW KPOP IS INFESTING AND RUINING MY LIFE
-___-
ARGH. dunno what to say alrdy.
looks like 2010 aint gonna end the way i hope it would: happily

what my place in ur heart
im fucking tired of having a damn blog which posts are alternates on the mood
one happy, nxt sad
make me feel fucking pathetic
dunno cry over u how many times liao sia
first girl who make me liddat
stupid me
fucking dumb me
open to u fully for fuck, u barely opened enough for me to slip in at all
now so hard to close. u're in anyw, close also no use
i feel like a retard, thanks to u
the retard who smiles at himself
as if there's no such thing called worries and anger and sadness whenever i recieve a msg from u
'Coz you aren't in dat category. Lol'
i swear these words will haunt me for as long as i dunno
AM I THAT LITTLE IN UR LIFE
TO NOT EVEN GIVE A FUCKING POKE BACK
HOW MUCH IS A DAMN POKE TO U ANYW
YOUR FRIGGIN LIFE?
the main thing is not whether u poke back or not
is just, what am i to u, seriously?
i wanna fucking know
so i can adjust to that 'rank' of which u see me in
and the rest of the day naturally falls apart too
no need anymore explanations

YOU PUT ME IN A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE, WOMAN
basketttt
awhile happy, awhile sad, awhile angry
so i think im. err. happy now? o_O
i seriously should think lesser
like A LOT lesser
be an idiot, know nothing. and be a sloth, dont bother discovering
liddat best, live happily with what u have now
ahh
I LOVE YOU:))

eh. jibai, fuck off leh
today. is totally shit.feel like exploding in anger, bursting into tears, and sulking at a corner
go esplanade, somebody talk all de jiao wei. i just smile smile act like its nth
at mrt, stand in between 2 indians talking loudly to each other
kns ur conver dunnid share with me can? i dont speaka indian anyw dickheads
exiting pasir ris mrt station, some fuckers in front dunno why so slow.
i just shouted a WHAT THE FUCK LA and walk to anyother tapping machine thingy
u know, actually all these shit WOULDNT HAVE MATTERED AT ALL
if u didnt make me feel like im just "one of another guys who u gotta entertain out of basic courtesy" ur replies today are practically ONE FUCKING WORD, when u minus off all those HAHAHAHA, Lol, Okay, and smileys.
lose interest in talking to me alrdy? well maybe that not wat u think, but thats how u're making me feel. u make me feel like a boring piece of shit
i told u to talk to me when u feel like it, u reply "heh. okay. if u insist"
WOW. that is AMAZING
i hope, sincerely, with all my heart, that u'd initiate a conver, now, later, or tmr morning, afternoon, evening or night. w/e
but i know u said that u dont really start a conver. i just hope i'd be an exception
but the smarter part of me told me to dream on,. yeah i doubt that smarter part of me would be wrong
seriously the past week talking to u was really awesome.
i know
that 好事不常在， 好花不常开
but i didnt expect it to end so quickly, as usual
i would say, someone, anyone, pls make me feel btr now
but i know only u can do it
funny how the only person who can make u happier than any other human being in this world
is also de same person who can drag u down crashing into depression and shits